Monday, November 25, 2013

The absurdity of conditioning

I have a photo of me in a bubble-filled, extremely sudsy jacuzzi, taken by Pete in our hotel room at Niagara Falls a couple of years back. I've never been able to post it publicly on Facebook or even show it to anyone privately, on Facebook or anywhere else, simply because I can't bring myself to do it... because, you know, *whispers* I'm not wearing any clothes under those bubbles. It's not a risque photo by any stretch - all you can see is my head poking out from the middle of billions of bubbles, and the smile on my face. 

I know this mental block is absurd, because I'm perfectly able to post photos of myself wearing clothes - and I'm just as naked underneath clothes (like everyone else) as underneath those bubbles! In fact, you see more of my skin when I'm wearing clothes - arms, hands, legs, feet, neck, sometimes some minimal cleavage... in other words, far more skin is visible normally than in that one photograph. 

I don't imagine that the presence of the bubbles will make anyone (male) think lecherous thoughts, any more than wearing clothes that cover me from neck to feet is going to stop them thinking those same thoughts. I do know that, in my head. I really do. I tell myself all this every time I think of the photo - and yet, and yet it still hasn't seen the light of day. And probably never will.

Ah, the absurdity of conditioning - and the absolute power it can exercise...


Kamini said...

I see your point, and agree with you entirely!! A thick covering of bubbles feels like no clothing at all, irrational as that might seem.

BUT - had you posted your pictures, I would not have thought of what lay beneath those bubbles (I have a very clean mind, you see ;) ) but instead would have just vicariously enjoyed a spa experience!

Anu said...

Depends on how the shot was if you were entirely covered with just head peeking out - would just like Kamini said - not even think there were no clothes underneath. But - yes - do agree we are so strongly conditioned that sometimes we resort to the ridiculous instead of common-sense!